Another steamy day..

Today there are two things I miss terribly from home: a washer and dryer and central air conditioning. I shouldn't complain about the air though because a lot of people don't even have a window unit like I do. It's actually very comfortable in my apartment, and I'm so exhausted I can't wait to jump into bed.
Tonight I got 3 weeks of laundry done, and officially signed up for my gym membership (the past week was my free trial). Tomorrow I'm getting my hair cut. I can't wait because I haven't gotten it cut since March and it's looking very gross, and I want something shorter for the summer.
Not too much else, can't wait for this week to be over... only 3 more days!

A new week

Ugh... I am so tired. I went to bed fairly early last night, and I have a feeling that I'll be heading to be in a little bit here. I went to work out after work today and am happy that I did, as I was considering not going. No excuses... I really want to be in better shape. I'm waiting for Adam to come back from the Dodge dealership. He put down a deposit on a 2005 Dodge Durango w/ the HEMI. I know when he comes back that is all he's going to want to talk about, and as much as I hate talking about cars with him, I'm actually excited for him.
Anyways, I'm in a better mood than last night, and Jim and I seemed to have worked things out. I'm still a little ticked, but he's truely sorry so I forgave him.
I know it's a little short, but my dinner is almost ready, and I have a few things I want to do before hitting the sack. Goodnight all.

Things aren't always as good as they seem...

This weekend was different. Usually I enjoy going down to the shore, but this weekend made me think twice about the people I was so quick to pick up as my close friends. I may seem a little extreme, but this seems like a good way to vent the way I feel, as I know some of them may read this.
I would normally consider myself to be easygoing and strong... nothing usually gets to me. Usually. But I found myself in several situations this weekend that really opened my eyes and made me realize that sometimes people are too good to be true, and everyone can treat you like shit sometimes.
The first occured when I arrived at the shore to find many of the guys drunk. I had baked cupcakes for Mike's b-day, as Adam and I missed it last weekend. I thought it was a pretty thoughtfull gesture, as guys would never bake another guy cupcakes and it's just another bonus of having a female live in the house. So I bring a drunken Mike a plate full of cupcakes, and he immediately grabs one and chucks it across the front lawn. I couldn't believe someone could be so rude, and disrespectfull and proceed to tell him that. He then grabs the cupcake from the ground to eat it. It made me laugh, but I still felt hurt. I know I'm not perfect, and I know Mike was drunk, but I still felt hurt that I go out of my way to do something nice for someone and HE"S the one to shit on me.
The second incident may seem more trivial, but seemed to upset me a lot more. It really hit a nerve in me b/c this time it didn't just effect me, it affected someone I love and care about. And the worst part, was that it came from the person I felt closest to; the guy in the house who I consider to be one of my best friends, and I think because HE let me down is why it hurts so bad.
So Adam and I go to bed, and I plug my cell phone in our room. Somehow it manages to end up on the kitchen table and one of my good buddies from home happens to call as all the guys are WASTED in the living room, and hear it ring. Talk about the wrong place at the wrong time. Anyways, so one of the guys picks it up and proceeds to start shit with my friend on the other end. Jim, comes in my room while I'm asleep and asks if I know who Mark is, thinking there's some guy at the house asking for me, I say no. Then I hear more screaming, and people saying threatening things. I realize that they are talking to my friend Marc and have been doing this for a while now. Kory brings me my phone and I call him back. I finally manage to get him on the phone and he's FURIOUS. I tell him that I had nothing to do with it, and my friends were drunk. This doesn't seem to help, he's still upset and reminds me of Adam when he's drunk and we get into an argument. Marc is so mad... he doesn't like to be threatened and I don't think anyone would have thought it was funny if they were in his situation. Judging by what he told me, it seemed like my friends not only ruined my night, but his as well. When you piss someone off you are not only making them mad, they reflect that on the people they're with and it ruins their night, b/c their friend isn't having a good time.
I talk to Marc a lot. He's the one friend from MSU, that I didn't live with, that I consider to be one of my best friends. I tell him how much I like NJ, and how great the guys there treat me. I tell him how nice everyone is, and that he should come down and visit sometime. I tell him not to worry about me, and that I'm in good hands.
I'm honestly embarassed, that someone I thought so highly of, could say things so terrible, regardless if they knew he was someone I knew or not. I feel betrayed. It takes one night to completely change the way someone feels about you, and these guys definately made me question the way I feel about them.
I guess I'm just too friendly. Myabe I'm stupid for trusting and developing ideas about people so quickly.... maybe I just wanted people here, in NJ that I could call my friends.

2 more days...

Why is this work week going by sooo slow? I feel like I sit at my desk for about 12 hours each day, when it's probably not more than 5. I think it's because I am looking forward to going to the shore this weekend. Although last weekend was great, I missed the shore and the chaos. I just can't wait until Friday.
How about those Pistons huh? I wish I could say that I watched the whole game last night, but I am a little embarassed to admit that Adam and I left the bar at half time and were asleep before the next half began. I've been getting more sleep than I did in college, and I'm doing 1/2 the work, so I have no clue as to why I am so exhausted.
I didn't work out today because I am way too sore from Monday and Tuesdays work outs. I'll be there tomorrow for sure, then I will be going home to work on some culinary masterpieces for this weekend. I enjoy cooking, except when I am trying to keep my apartment cool, and I have to have the stove on. Tonight I made a new recipe I found on the internet, and it was actually pretty decent, so that made me happy.
As you can tell there isn't much to report, same shit, different day. I hope I'll have something exciting to report soon, but until then I'm going to catch up on some sleep. Goodnight

Just another manic Monday

Today was definately one of those crazy Mondays. Work wasn't too bad, but getting into the airport last night after 11:00, not getting home until midnight, and not going to bed until 1:00, when I had to wake up at 7:00 was pretty rough. I felt like I was going to pass out on my desk all day. After work I went home and changed and finally got my fat ass to the gym. Adam goes to a really nice gym and I got a membership as well. I felt pretty good after not having worked out in a year!!! I made it 25 minutes on the eliptical machine going full speed. I then ate dinner and showered and that is where I am now. I could have went home after work and passed out, but I didn't and I feel like my day had some purpose at least.
On a sad note, the Pistons lost last night, hopefully we can give the Spurs a run for their money in the last two games. I wanted to get back to NY on time last night, but didn't get home until the game was almost over. Tomorrow night we're going to watch it for sure and I can finally get the Buffalo Wings I have been craving all weekend!
The weekend at home was great. I was nice to finally see my family and my dog! My sister's grad party went well and the food was great. I only wish I could have stayed home and helped polish off the leftovers. Ashely was very excited with her present from Adam and I. I saw Kendra too, it was nice to talk to someone who understands you, and is such a great friend to me and my family.
After being home, I started to realize the happier I am with my decision to be out here. I love Michigan and the people there, but I know I would miss Adam so much, and living at home would not be easy either. My mom is a little over protective and I know that it would be hard to get the experience I am now, living at home. I think we'll both get by ok, and I'm sure we'll see each other often.
Well that's about it for tonight... I am exhausted. I will try to write tomorrow... GO PISTONS!!!

Go Pistons !

Went to the bar tonight with some of the guys from the shore house. We were going to go to Hooters but when we arrived we soon learned it was biker night and had to choose another place to watch the game. Had a good time and great conversation as always. I'm happy I got to see everyone, as I won't be seeing them this weekend. Like I said before they are a great group of guys, and because they are the only friends I have, it's nice to spend time with them. And to make the night better the Pistons finally won a game in this round, lets hope they can keep it up.
Work went well today, I'm starting to get a little busier, and beginning to have appointments, and call backs from weeks ago. I'm learning a lot about the business and also about the company in general. I got my first full 2 week paycheck today too. Not too bad, but a little sad to see that most of it is spoken for in bills, food..etc. I love New Jersey but everything is more expensive here it seems. I miss Rick's $2.00 pitchers! Hell, even a $10 pitcher would be inexpensive now. The bars at the shore sell 12 oz cans of beer for $3.75, it's a good thing we're drunk before we go!
Not much else new here, goodnight! GO PISTONS!!!!

A New Place

It's a horrible feeling. Leaving all your friends, and your family to permanently live someplace you've only visited a handfull of times. It's just like that quote in Garden State:

"You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, its like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is. a group of people who miss the same imaginary place."

I definately miss everything about Michigan. The night before I left I didn't sleep. I cried so hard for so long. I felt so bad about leaving everyone, and making so many people sad. I must think about my friends from home a million times a day. I still refer to Kendra, Emily and Amy as my roomates. Sometimes I think it hasn't clicked yet, and all it takes is walking into an empty apartment to really feel alone.

Don't get me wrong, I spend plenty of time with Adam, and everything with us has been perfect, but he can't possibly take the place of everyone. Even when I am with him, my mind wanders and I think about everyone and get so sad. It's like I know if I had found a job in MI I would be going through the same thing with him, and because he's such a huge part of my life, I don't regret moving out here. I have a great job, a nice apartment, and an amazing boyfriend, but I have no freinds out here. I am beginning to become a lot closer to some of the guys at the shore house, but it's not like I hang out with them any other time.

Enough about that... Anyways, I've been here almost a month. Like I said my apartment is pretty cool. It's not as small as I had imagined, and it's perfect for me. I live only 20 minutes outside New York City, so once the summer is over and we no longer have the shore house, I'm sure Adam and I will be taking a million trips into the city. There are so many shows I want to see, and I would love to get tickets to SNL again. I have a lot to look forward too and for the more part I am doing fine. I miss the kids at the preschool though. Those babies made me so happy, and I can't wait to see how they've grown the Fall.

The shore house was the greatest idea Adam has ever had. We have so much fun there. It's like Spring Break every weekend, and I'm fortunate enough to live with the greatest guys. They are always taking care of me and looking out for me. They're just an amazing group! I've made it down there the past 3 weekends, and because I'm going home this weekend it will be the first weekend I haven't gone down. I'm the youngest one in the house, and feel embarassed at how everyone else seems to party harder, drink faster, and stay up later than me. I thought that Michigan State made me a party animal, but apparently not as much as I thought.

Ok, well now that I've done my babbling for the night, I'm going to get to bed. Goodnight all!